I've been working for 10 years now, and there have been many times when I've wanted to quit or change jobs.
Ultimately, I didn't change jobs, but I did engage in job-hunting activities.
I'd like to write about the actions and thoughts I took during that time.
The reason I wanted to quit my job
This happened around my second year on the job.
As is often the case, I was coming home late every day, being given an enormous amount of work by my seniors, and was physically and mentally exhausted.
I would leave the office around 11 PM every day, just before the last train, and since my home was quite far away, I would arrive home around midnight.
And because I had urgent matters to attend to every morning, I would head straight to the client's office earlier than the usual start time.
That being said, I was able to keep my weekends off to a reasonable extent, and there were days when I could go home around 9 PM, so it wasn't as bad as the people who died from overwork that you see on the news.
I think my monthly overtime hours exceeded 100 hours...
I won't go into detail, but my relationships with colleagues both inside and outside the company weren't good, and I increasingly felt the urge to quit my job.
I actually felt like I wanted to die, and once, when I came home late at night, I tried to hang myself by hooking an electrical cord onto the doorknob.
It's hard to imagine now, but I learned firsthand that when a person's body and mind are pushed to their limits, they lose the ability to think rationally.
I remember feeling like I was going to throw up the dinner I'd just eaten because my neck was being squeezed, and it was just incredibly painful.
For these reasons—the heavy workload and late working hours, and my dislike of the interpersonal relationships at my current job—I decided to look for a new job, a very common reason.
I actually tried job hunting.
However, I didn't immediately start looking for a new job.
I was worried that if I tried to change jobs after not staying at the same company for two years, people would think I lacked perseverance, so I endured working there for five years.
Until then, I had worked with only one thing in mind: "gaining experience for my own benefit."
Having the goal of "all of this is for the sake of changing jobs" has helped me improve my mental control.
However, the biggest challenge I faced when starting my job search was figuring out "why I should leave my current company."
I feel rather embarrassed saying that my current job is too demanding or that I dislike the interpersonal relationships.
I felt that people would think I would quit my next job for the same reason again soon after starting.
Therefore, I focused on what I truly wanted to do and steadily pursued my job search.
Since I had interviews and other appointments on weekdays, I took full advantage of the opportunity to use my paid leave, which I don't usually use, and visited various companies.
result
To put it simply, I didn't change jobs.
The main reason is that, while looking for a new job, I came to appreciate the good points of my own company.
The advantages include surprisingly good pay, fairly good weekends off, and infrequent transfers.
If you look for a new job for negative reasons, that might be conveyed to the prospective employer.
With those reasons for changing jobs, the only companies I could realistically get into were those with worse conditions than my current one.
Also, my stated reason for wanting to work here—"what I want to do"—isn't entirely a lie, so I've come to think that I might be able to do that within my current company as well.
My current motivation for my work is the hope that after achieving results in my current industry, I will be transferred to the department I want to work in.
Changes in thinking
When I was at rock bottom, I thought this suffering would last forever.
However, I was able to endure it by telling myself that this situation wouldn't last forever.
In interpersonal relationships, people who are clearly abnormal tend to be naturally excluded because those around them also think, "This person is abnormal."
However, you would need to actively work to bring it to light...
Also, the workload will become easier if the number of team members increases.
Furthermore, you can dramatically improve things by finding efficient solutions and making adjustments yourself.
If the problem is too great to be addressed through ingenuity alone, you can also appeal to the company for increased staffing.
In that sense, I consider myself lucky to have worked for a relatively decent company.
I've ended up rambling on and on about myself,The important thing is that even if you don't feel like you're seriously considering changing jobs, the process of looking for a new job can lead to new discoveries.
To reassess your own value and boost your motivation at your current job, why not try registering on a job search website?
Registration is mostly free.
Things I'm conscious of or trying to do to leave work early
I hope the "resignation assistance" service becomes more widespread.
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